My Prince, my Prince, my beautiful Prince Rest your weary head on my breast Let me soothe your troubles away For soon I know you’ll return to the sea Our destiny had brought us together But the hand of fate is fickle indeed In time I’ll be left to stand on the shore To sadly watch your ship retreat My Prince, sweet Prince, man of my dreams Remember my face as you glide over waves See that the love in my heart was pure Though only a harbor in rough seas Your sail will unfurl and again catch wind So hold me against your chest gently pounding Let me feel the warmth of your lips Love lights up soft eyes tinged with tears Your face being a direct reflection of mine My Prince, true Prince, my dear noble Prince Grieve not though our yearning is fierce The time that we had can never be matched No two hearts could ever beat stronger Remember when you must turn away This choice was not ours to make Bless your way, stay safe from all harm Hold tight the thought that you may return That our paths may cross again in the time That stretches before us like an endless ribbon Remember the maiden you left on the beach Whose soul now intertwines with yours Hold fast to the memory of laughing eyes And lips that curved upward only for you Embrace me tightly for one last touch Before you follow your destiny onward My Prince, my Prince, goodbye my sweet Prince I’m choking back tears as my heart overflows Letting go of the Prince that I love
My mind drifts back To yesterday When we were lovers We shared a tenderness A closeness that Can not be defined But you left me Alone and afraid Not knowing what Tomorrow would bring I had to face up To my world of darkness To dreams that were Incomplete without you I thank you now For making me strong Making me live for today
The air is so humid But I’m still so cold It lingers inside me These icicles of loneliness Encasing my heart It’s a frozen shield I’ve designed to protect From further pain But to shut out the hurt You must also block out All the simple pleasures Like a baby’s smile And sweet roses in bloom I can only be whole again To seek what life offers When the radiance of your presence Melts these chains And sets my heart free
So I sat down today determined to write about something, but I really wasn’t sure what it was that I wanted to address. There’s a number of things that have been running through my mind, some I would like to share, more still that I wouldn’t for various reasons. I’ve been thinking a lot about loyalty lately. There are those who love me and a couple of these people are fiercely loyal, but most of them not so much. To some extent this has been bothering me, but I finally came to the realization that it’s not a matter of the depth of feeling, it’s more a matter of strength. My babygirl loves me to the moon and I believe that if I were to tell her that someone was bothering me, she would happily walk over to them and rip off their face! (Not literally of course, but the feeling would be there… 😏) Now she’s a strong minded woman with a very big heart and there’s no doubt that she loves her mama! <3 I myself am very strong, (not sure where that comes from, inherited genes and being extremely stubborn probably contributes) and I’ll fight for the ones I love, especially if I think they’re not in a position to fight for themselves, (which says a lot because I hate confrontation and drama). So anyway, I’ve been turning this over in my mind and I figured out that it’s a matter of strength. Not physical strength, not even mental strength, it’s an inner strength that can’t be faked, can’t be forced, maybe can’t even be learned, it’s just a part of who you are. I’ve always believed in taking the high road rather than taking the easy route and it bothers me to no end for anyone to be able to hold anything over my head, which is why I believe in paying my own way and not owing anything to anyone. (Do I trust you enough to give you that power?) Now this brings me to my epiphany, not everyone has that personal steeliness. I love you, but do me wrong and I can walk away without looking back and continue on with my life, this goes for anybody, family or friend, but I’m learning that there are people that love differently. They apparently don’t want to upset the applecart in any way these people. Why can’t we all just be friends? Live and let live? Grin and bear it? Sing kumbaya? I’m all for that, don’t get me wrong, don’t bother me and I certainly won’t bother you, but what if someone does bother me? I believe I have the right to stand up for myself and nobody should think that they have the authority to take that away from me. Are you standing up for me? No, then sit your butt down and I’ll stand up for myself (which is necessary to me because I’m nobody’s doormat). I think it’s a definition difference. Loyalty to me is always standing by someone I love, even when they’re wrong, (but I’ll definitely tell them why they’re wrong in private), taking up for them when someone has something to say behind their back that I don’t agree with (and I probably won’t even tell them what I did because what purpose would it serve other than to upset them) and not going along with the crowd when I know those actions will be hurtful, (being accepted by everybody isn’t important to me). Loyalty doesn’t mean that you have to choose to love one and not another, it doesn’t mean that you should beat up everybody that looks at your loved one sideways and it definitely doesn’t mean butting into your loved one’s problems uninvited. That’s not loyalty, that’s just being silly. Stand up to the injustice done to someone you love, it’s as simple as that. Now for an example, there have been upsets within my own family and in some instances when it involved me, I’ve actually made it clear that I didn’t want sides to be taken. After one particular altercation, my babygirl, she never turned her back on them, but she did still tell them that they were wrong, she stood up for me! Now that’s my idea of loyalty. Maybe I’m wrong, my thinking may be skewed, but I believe that you should never give anyone the power to dictate your actions, whether they’re using love, guilt, money or whatever leverage they think that they have to hold over your head. You love who you choose with an honest heart and clear head and in so doing, you’re free to speak your mind and do the right thing.
So I’m trolling on Facebook, something I do about 30 minutes of every day and I follow a few different animal sites, so I get more than my fair share of furbaby pics. Well there’s this video of “Hero dog won’t leave his friend” and it REALLY ticks me off. This poor dog has been hit by a train and is laying helpless on the tracks while another dog stands over him, now that is beautiful, animals showing pure love, BUT who is this *sshat filming it and why hasn’t he done something to help? Especially when yet ANOTHER train comes and the dog is cowering on the tracks and his friend is forced to stand to the side until the train passes. I saw pure red, I was so mad… So I leave the following comment, “This is disgusting!!! Help the freaking dog, don’t stand there filming it!!! NOBODY SHARE THIS CRAP!!! Take away their 15 minutes of fame!!!” Of course I didn’t really expect to make a difference, but at least I put in my two cents worth. There! Take that! Feel the heat of my wrath in words because I’m not actually there to smack the crap out of you! Well well, somebody left me a comment, big surprise there, another chest thumping dumb*ss. She said “read my post”, so I did and this is what she said verbatim, “He did explain the male dog was protecting the female dog so made rescuing difficult, it was only after a few days that he allowed the rescue home to help. The guy filming was actually filming just before the rescue.” Well I’ll be! That just changes EVERYTHING! I’m so sorry! NOT!!! You sh*t for brains! (And never mind the “home for help” part. Huh?) So I replied, “I read your post, I stand by what I said. It doesn’t take days to effect a rescue, ask any vet that has used a tranquilizer.” I was polite and concise although I still seethed inside. I have this reaction to a lot of the senseless posts that I sometimes see and I’ve run the risk of upsetting some friends when they happen to be the unfortunate ones to share said posts. Like one I saw a couple of months ago, shared by someone actually pretty dear to me, it was a poor dog that had duct taped mouth and feet. The caption was “Scroll by if you’re heartless, share if you would help me.” I know she meant well, she’s an animal lover that goes out of her way to help homeless animals, but she wasn’t seeing the big picture which is, “Why the h*ll are you taking pictures instead of doing something? Are you the monster that did this just so you could take a freaking picture? So I blasted the post, not her specifically, but the stupid picture, she didn’t hold it against me. Whew… There’s a lot of this going on, cruelty to animals just so somebody can get their “15 minutes of fame”. Don’t perpetuate the cycle, if you don’t share it, it will die a quiet death and eventually people will stop doing this kind of stuff because they’re not getting the desired attention. Also perhaps it may help me to not be in a jail cell one day because if I ever see something and I actually have the opportunity to land my right hook instead of just my words, somebody’s going down!
Please always be honest with me no matter what the cost Although it may hurt my feelings, at least my respect won’t be lost If you’ll be big enough to tell me exactly what’s on your mind I’ll be big enough to take it, please don’t leave me blind I always know when something’s wrong, when things are not quite right But don’t expect me to read your mind, for me, please shed some light Don’t try to make it easy on me by denying how you feel Because then I’d never forgive you, that wound would never heal If you find that you must hurt me, my disappointment may be deep But I would soon get over it if allowed my dignity to keep Please don’t ever tell me lies, or the truth, don’t try to hide If you’re always honest with me, you’ll keep a friend there by your side
At the beginning of every new year everybody does the same old thing, make New Year’s resolutions. I quit participating in this annual ritual some years back, but this year, I’m diving right back in again. This new year is going to be the beginning of a new me! New do, that’s number one, because I thought that I could embrace the silver and rock that, but uhm, no… not liking that at all. Losing weight is number two, big surprise there! 😂 Seriously though, I’ve been a size 5 forever and now I’m not even close, haven’t been for the last couple of years and I’m not liking that either! Change of attitude is number three… I’m not sure which direction I’m going with that one, I just know it needs tweaking a bit. Am I too soft? Too brash? I think my temper maybe needs to be checked somewhat. Perhaps snarky with a big dash of not really giving a flip which in turn will make me a happier camper which will result in me actually being nicer when I should be, but tougher when I need to be. Yep, that sounds good! Number four is that I definitely need to stop procrastinating, now that’s a really bad habit. I get easily bored and if it’s not stimulating to my brain, I really just don’t want to do it, whatever it is. Something I want to learn about? I’ll study it for hours on end. Some kind of electronic glitch? I can sit there all day long trying one thing after another until I finally figure it out. I do love a challenge and a puzzle! Any new game, recipe or whatever, I’m going to do it and keep doing it until I get completely burned out on it. No half measures for me! 😃 Number five, hummm, let’s see… I think I’m going to finally figure out what it is that I want to do with my life and I’m just going to do it! No more playing that waiting game, hoping for the perfect time to make things happen, I’ve got to be the one to make it happen! I always tell myself someday, but I’m running out of days and so someday may never come. I want to get my motorcycle license and not always just ride on the back, can’t do that sitting my butt on the couch! I want to start a full time business, be my own boss and be the one to call the shots, can’t do that spending all my free time on social media. I want to DO something, but I let myself get complacent and I use the crutch that now is not the right time. So when is the right time? It is NOW, right now, the right time is as soon as possible, but I’ve got to stop procrastinating, I’ve got to change my attitude, and that new hair color and weight loss plan would definitely help to give my spirits a boost! 😉 All of this would help to push me in the right direction of where I want to be… CARPE DIEM!!!
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